I have come to acceptance with a few things.
1. Everyone has flaws and there is no point focusing on people's flaws when I might suffer from the same problems as others.
2. I should not build up my hate level over stupid people who does stupid things.
3. I should be more neutral.
4. I have stupid seniors in NS!
5. Rather than whining about how your life is fucked up, why not put that saliva to good use to say more constructive things?
But most importantly,
SINGAPORE IS UGLY----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Well, at least I can see things in more perspective rather than most one-way-road minds of the majority. Looking back these past few months, it made me realise how much I have changed. I feel that I can think better. But I haven't lost any of my serious-less-ness and my bad habits. *the auntie on the bus forced me to use the middle finger on her for the first time in 4 months.* I have been notified today early in the morning that I have been norminated (yet again.. I always gets this things happening to me once in a while like 3 weeks once...) to take up media in NS. Photography and editing to creating a movie clip.. They even provide lessons for me to teach me how to take photos and all. I would probably think that things I capture would really look very different from what I would use to take from the past. Not saying that I have become a master overnight but probably every picture which I am going to take would have a story which only I would understand. I never had any flare with things that have connections with perspective. You can check that with my art teacher in primary and secondary school. Never got an A for perspective drawing. More of a high class imitation like a China good. Always felt as more of a follower than a creator until now. Probably now is that break to learn to become that leader which was in-born in me since the day that I was born to be.
My lungs are collapsing.. At least i think they are.. off for now..
